finally

finally done what i wanted to do today. now i’ll just have to wait one more week for the results. just hope that everything will be fine. sometimes the holiday is a good time to set things right and prepare yourself for a longer journey ahead.

on another note, i also got my referal letter today. i shall stop being such a wimp, and maybe stop disturbing people with my own fears. it only gets worse. so i just gotta face it, and stop thinking of the past.

alot of times i have to be thankful for having dd with me all the time. its an exclusive privilege and i feel very blessed. =)

ahh i’ve always contemplated locking up my diary/journal/blog because its sucks to be writing (subconsciously)  for an audience sometimes. performativity at work, and it might not result, all the time, in the exposure of true feelings or deep reflections. but then again it doesnt mean that i feel like that all the time.

so if one fine day you really do find my blog locked up, pls dont be alarmed!

pain

it wasnt a fruitful day at all. my cramps totally ruined the day.

i need to be stronger than this. arghh.

 

blender

should i get philips at 80 bucks or moulinex at 60 bucks?

=/

shiok

yay im somewhat done with all the assignments for this semester. its the holidays! damn shiok. just like a student all over again, haha.

im thinking of what to do for this upcoming holidays… maybe i’ll go for more dance classes.. maybe i’ll go rollerblading… happiness! 

but there’s still a tinge of fear because there’s a possibility i maybe going for the extraction in december.

anywayss..happy holidays peeps! wheehee!!

Sobs

Sobs I’m really worried and disturbed by the biggg ulcer in my mouth. Tried using e watermelon frost for a few days…. And even bonjela-ed for two days but it didn’t subside…

it’s almost a weeek. I hope it heals soon. Plss ;(

tooth business

my wisdom tooth has ruined my already-not-so-perfect teeth alignment… despite the ultra ulcer hurting in my mouth, i tried prying open my mouth to take a better look at the two lil’ teeth growing at the back. guess what i saw. my last molar’s being pushed out of its position and its making me worry like hell. both the upper one and the lower one are disaligned because i’ve two wisdom tooth that’re growing off tangent ((( i cannot imagine that i’m going to be shaved off a few hundred bucks to remove two tooth and  possibly suffer enormous pain for  a week!

i am really troubled by that damn thing. because i am really scared of the extraction   sobs. i feel like crying. argh what a coward. hai.

 

tired

the semester is coming to an end..but it’d left me feel drained and tired. need to recharge. maybe another visit to the spa? ha. i miss the aroma massage we had at the ultimate, that was about a month ago i think.  if i had the money i would not hesitate to buy the whole package! hahaa. indulgence. but its always a case of if-only, and then, full-stop.  if i had to choose between unlimited dance classes and a year-long spa package… guess which one would i go for? ha.

and choosing a house seems such a daunting task, its a huge decision to make, not to mention the mammoth commitment level behind it.

the art of living is definitely something that’s hard to master. at times, the direction seems so vague, i dont know where its leading us to. but sometimes i feel so certain, that-must-be-it kinda feeling, but then again what makes me so sure?

anyway its been pouring non-stop for the few days, or the past week in fact. i am liking the weather quite a bit, because it feels like spring at night. so cooling though it can get rather cold as well. but the weather is not soo permitting that i can release my trench coat from its captivity. no way we can wear trench coats in singapore, and thats just a little pity that we have to live in, in exchange for the many pleasant things that we have.

writing is indeed very therapeutic. because i almost always end up reminding myself that… i need to be happy and thankful for all the blessings that we have in life. and not, to denigrate others for things that we, ourselves, have always been doing all along.

flushed.

yesterday was black friday. i broke the flush handle in the toilet and now the toilet bowl must be flushed manually with a bucket of water. back to the good old days. lol~ luckily my mum did not reprimand me for that. she merely commented that it was too old, thats why it broke. lol.

foood

dd told me there were worms in his friend’s food when they were eating at ayam P. yesterday. one of my new fave food place in jp… how can that be. =( i felt so grossed out just by listening, and i couldnt imagine what the worm would look like. if its big enough to be visible, it must be a sizable wormie huh. the only good thing bout it was that he didnt have to pay for his food as a form of compensation.  

hai. it’ll be a long time before i step into that shop again.

ayamm.

movie

i just finished watching the korean movie that vin passed me. damn damn sad movie =( was sobbing and hoping that my mum wont see! lol.

and last night i caught another good movie – 2012. pls go watch it, you wont regret! was sobbing too cos some bits of the movie is really v. saddening.

ahhhh. a day of tears and rain.